February 18th, 2021

agony

STRESS

I realized today that I've been trying to do too much. The Miracle Morning, 12 Week Year, GTD, writing, Habitica, all of it is suddenly no long freeing, it's... turned into a cage. I'm exhausted. I'm stressed over nothing. I can't do this. I can't do it anymore.

So I'm going to stop a lot of it. Some, I'm not sure about. I'll have to see. But some, a lot of it? It's going away. And if it never comes back, that's okay. I've taken off a lot of my tasks, and I'll take off more, on Habitica, and I'm just going to try something less structured.

I don't know if it'll work. I really don't. The more structure didn't, though, and I need to step away, step back, and try something else. Go back to the... well, no, Not back. Because I've learned so much. But I can go forward with some more freedom, and see what I can manage with that.

I don't know what will happen. And that's okay. I guess... it's sort of time to remake myself again. Hopefully, I'll like her better.